Sleeplesness

started playing again... this time pure cash games... the triumph is not the same as in playing tournaments... i get motivated more by the challenge of staying last... see my posts in bold-move.blogspot.com 2 years back... the thrill of sneaking in the dark to play can be found no longer ever since it became official. i wonder if there are still those places you need to give out a certain name to play. haven't had much chance to really screen other locations but it seemed that when you played back then... you will easily be known by name or recognized by face since only a few where playing then... sometimes tables did not get filled in that quickly even. nowadays, you would need to have your name written on a wait list to join the cash games. what makes me hate and love the game? sitting in a table with strangers who size you up everytime you move, talk, or breathe. being judged at the moment you sit down and even after you leave... that is irritating but eventually you will be doing the same thing to them. the people you meet tend to seem all friendly and nice until you start beating them... but there are those few who are still as nice as ever. these are people from all walks of life. some you would really want to play with again and others you would want to avoid the next time around. the anticipation of the river... sometimes you get screwed, sometimes you win it all... and other times you just get back what you gave. yup, i miss playing... wonder when i can hit those tables again...